Ahh....the single life. Awesome. Lonely. Freeing. Simple. Hopeful. Set.

I'm writing this blog because I'm 28 and single. I don't know if I'll be single for a long time, for ever time, or for a few more weeks. No idea. I figure, if I get married, it's for keeps. So I might as well document my life as a "party of one" while it's still relevant.

I've been in love 2 times. Once to an awesome, great great man in undergraduate school. This lasted one year. I was sure we'd get married. But I moved on to graduate school and my heart changed. I was too young. Wanted to date other people, see what was out there. I didn't want to be on the phone with him for the next three years while everyone else was out living up the life. Perhaps a mistake. He was fun, sweet, kindhearted and loved me. We were great together.
My second love was what I've called (and no longer call) "the love of my life." We now hate him. 3 years. What a waste. What an asshole.
Did I mention we hate him?

I've been officially single this go round since September 20, 2008.

There've been some dates, some crushes, revisits from former awful ex boyfriends, a proposal, a crazy guy, a friendly romantic type relationship that's confusing, crazy guy resurface, one night kisses, designated nicknames, weight loss, weight gain, boredom, excessive drinking, tears, lots of laughs, and some new hobbies discovered.

Being solo can be a lot of fun. It can suck too. I don't know if I'm ready for a partner or not. I don't know if I'm compatible with.....well, anyone. I don't know if I have any romance left in me (I hope so). But my life can't just be about finding some partner. That's crazy. It's got to be about finding fullness and appreciation....maybe throw some service in there too. It just can't be...that our lives are about...another person. Can it?
So.... I suppose my latest perspective is this:
No, it's not good for "man to be alone." But while I'm waiting to find that partner, I want to make my life as full and enjoyable + meaningful as possible. As for the dude. Eh, we'll cross that bridge if it comes along. In the meantime, whether going on dates or grilling out alone, I'm gonna have a great time being single.

Cheers!

-kitty